*Mummy*

Bersembang dengan mama kadang2 leh release tensen..

walaupon slalu dok gaduh2 manja anak beranak...

apa2 pn thanx mama dengar cita boring ili pasal "dia"

Thanx atas nasihat..

Kita tunggu dan lihat ja la apa yg akan jadi nnt...

nota kaki: buntu itu datang lagi~

Who next??your mother..Who next?? your mother...

When I look around i can see many things;

basically about life of course, people around me, job that I want, man, marriage, being a mum..

BEING A MUM??

It sounds funny at first when the thought came across my mind..

But we will become one when the time comes..

I always asked myself, "Am I ready??"

At the age of 24 it is not something weird if you think that way.. (I guess..haha)

I don't know about others..but for me it something that I need to think..

It is not the question whether you are ready or not to become a "MUM, MAMA, IBU, UMI" or whatever names you want to call it"

Once you've become a mother then you have to prepare yourself..

Whether you are ready or not..you must be ready!

I think I am ready!! Hahaha...

The main thing I need to do before settling down is find a job

Then my mama will give permission to marry or be married.. (peace mama!hehe~)

I'm talking *crab* again..

I giggled when this thought came across my mind..

I do realized that I am still young and should chase my dreams

But I can't help it because everybody wants to get married right?..( don't lie..don't lie..hehehe)

So, I am one of them..

"Ili, Stop it! you've had enough mumbling and nagging on ur blog!"

Ok2..back on track..err..about being a mum..yah, right!

I'm salute my sisters because they can be a good mother

When ups and downs come into their life..

Thus, this thing popped out into my mind..

Because I'm kinda scared to be a mum because I'm hot tempered (yaa..I've revealed my bad side of mine to the whole world..

*Like people care about you* huh? shut up you little evil mind!

Hehehe..

That's why I became a "weirdo" in such an early beautiful Sunday morning..

Since my niece keep on crying..

Poor her..My sister don't know what she wants because she don't stop crying..

Now, she's already asleep soundly and maybe in dreamland already because I can hear snoring out loud! (from mother or daughter or it was my sister Nurhani Idayu??) hehehe..

So, It can't be considered as "sleep soundly"..

Oooppss! Ok..actually when i post this I can't sleep so here I am..talking *crab* again..ehek! Sorry blog dearie..Got to go..I wanna play Cityville on FB! Hoyeahhh! you really made my day CV when i have situation like this~ Can't sleep but I want to..

Enuff said~ ADIOS!

Superman

I can say that he's my Life Saver

He's one of the most important person in my life

Also a bestfriend..

But i don't know what is the exact feelings for him..

God, please don't make him suffer because of me..

I'm not intended to toy him around..

not even a slight intention to do like that to him..

I just need some time to think about what am i suppose to do with my life first..

Get a job, build my career then I can think about Man n Love..

Mr. A, i'm not a player like you always said..it's just it isn't a right time to think about LOVE and MARRIAGE at the moment..

My mum once said that if you are for me and we meant to be together then you will always for me..

Please don't think too much about this..

You just hurt yourself..

I don't want you to be hurt because of me..

I'm so sorry..

But above all..

You always be my life saver, a SUPERMAN..

That one i can be certain..

Thank you Mr. Superman

"Azli bin Abdul Aziz"

"Thanks Mr. Go0gle"

So do you have your own superman? I bet u also have one..

~Love your Life~

Waktu benar2 cepat berlalu..

sekelip mata aku dah 24 Tahun..

Pelbagai perkara pahit manis berlaku dalam hidup..

dari zaman kanak-kanak yang tak berapa manis..

zaman remaja yang agak kelat..

sehingga sekarang sudah dewasa..

kelihatan ada sedikit sinar di hujung terowong..

Boleh dikatakan sekarang sudah sampai ke Zaman Renaissance agaknya..

Kadang ketawa sendirian memikirkan kenangan..

Tapi..rasanya air mata yang lebih banyak berguguran..

"Setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya"

Kata-kata itu sering diungkapkan di dalam hati..

Cuba dipujuk hati sendiri..

Barangkali lebih terasa lega

Apabila dalam kesusahan..

Apabila hidup dilanda ujian..

Apabila sedang dalam kesedihan..

Kata2 itu yang meniupkan semangat agar terus kuat..

Walau betapa sukar harungi liku-liku kehidupan..

Harus dicuba lupakan segala kepahitan..

Tiada yang rugi untuk dilepaskan..

Mungkin lebih tenang bila berbuat demikian

Begitu juga aku..

Mencuba untuk tidak toleh kebelakang..

Kerana terlalu gelap kurasakan..

Hanya yang manis akan ku kenang..

Segala yang pahit eloklah dibuang..

Pastinya nanti akan temui kebahagiaan..

Segala yang pahit akan bertukar menjadi manis..

Cuma sabar..dan terus bersabar..dan terus bersabar..

InsyaAllah..

~Ihsan dari Go0gle~

>iLi<

Coward~

~Kadang-kadang terasa ingin LARI dari segala-galanya~

"Terima Kasih Mr. Go0gle"

Lara Jiwa

Ada rahsia di dalam hati,
Jangan sampai diketahui orang,
Makin disimpan separuh mati,
Perit rasanya bukan kepalang.

Semakin jauh semakin sayang,
Kasihmu seorang aku dambakan,
Walau di dunia engkau menghilang,
Di hati jangan sesekali dilupakan.

Anak kecil bermain lelayang,
Pergi ke sawah di pagi hari,
Fikiran tak tenteram jauh melayang,
Teringatkan orang yang sudah pergi.

Sungguh asyik di buai mimpi,
Terlena di ambal sampai ke senja,
Sudah takdir dijemput Ilahi,
Tabahkankan di hati biarlah redha.

Duduk bersimpuh si anak dara,
Tersenyum simpul si anak teruna,
Memang benar seperti di kata,
Sudah tiada baru terasa.

Sungguh indah bulan mengambang
Bintang berkelip di kelam malam
Tiada niat ingin mencanang,
Cuba meluah rasa yang terpendam.

by: iLi HaNaNi

now i can feel what they feel..

Practical is already over..
now i'm an unemployed person..
so bored doing nothing at home...
i hope i can find a job sooner!

Almost reach it~

dah 6 minggu prac..sat ja masa berlalu...
lagi 29 hari ja nak prac.. (lepas tolak cuti2 suma tinggal 29 hari la..hehe)
rasa mcm x sabaq nak abihkan prac n cari keja..banyak benda nak wat kalau dah keja..nak beli umah, nak beli keta...nak jaga mama n bik..lot of things! n above all..it will change my life n i'll be HAPPY at the end..still searching for it..hope i can find it soon~ :)

bla..bla..bla..

again..it's been ages i dun visit my blog n "spider web" are everywhere here n there..hahaha..so..wut can we talk here..of course about life, ups n downs, success, future etc. wut else rite?

so..diam x diam it's almost 3 years i've been studying in UKM n i'm in my final year rite now..InsyaAllah next year i'll be graduated! yeayyy!!! hope so..hope nothing will happen before i graduate..amin..

n 20/12/2010 adalah satu tarikh yang agak menakutkan sbb nak prac dah weh...mampuih aku..semoga segalanya berjalan dgn lancar..n berakhir 11/3/2011..cepat2la masa berlalu..x sabaq!!

H.U.R.T

walaupun semuanya nampak ok..
sebenarnya kita saling membenci..

i hate it!
i want 2 go far2 away from all of u..
i'm not part of all of u..
n i dun have 2 be worried 4 people dat always hurting me..

sejahat2 dia..
dia yg besarkan kamu..
jgn lupa daratan...

dah besaq kan..
pandai2 la pikir..
wlupon dia bukan sapa2 kat kamu..
tp kamu kena ingt..
apa yg kamu buat skang..
akan dapat balasan kemudian hari..
anak kamu jugak akan wat kat kamu balik..

ssh kan hdp ni..
terlalu complicated,..
semua org hanya berpura2..
dan saya x suka keadaan yg sy dah lalui slma berbelas thn sy hadapi ni..
terlalu sakit..

org x faham..
org hanya nampak luaran..
biarlah mereka mengata..
mereka x berada di tempat aku..

Teringat~

Kadang2 teringat dekat orang2 yg telah pergi meninggalkan aku..
arwah tok- diam x diam dah 7 thn Tok tinggalkan ili..ili rindu tok sgt2..kalaulah tok masih ada...mesti ili sentiasa bahagia sbb ada org yg manjakan ili..ili rindu Tok sgt2~

arwah pak caq- 5/12/2010 genap 1 thn pak caq tinggalkan ili..pak caq macam ayah utk ili..dr kecik sampai la dekat2 pak caq dah nak meninggal..pak caq still ada dgn ili...

arwah abah- bulan ni dah 5 bulan abah tinggalkan ili..12 Mac 2010 adalah tarikh yang gembira sbb dapat jumpa abah balik lepas 3 thn x jumpa abah..terasa baru kemarin jumpa abah dekat Kelantan..selepas 20 thn ili x balik kelantan..n den seminggu lepas jumpa abah..abah pn tinggalkan ili..rupanya itu merupakan kali terakhir ili jumpa abah..walaupun ili kurang kasih sayang seorang ayah..ili bersyukur di saat2 akhir hidup abah di dunia..ili ada dgn abah..cuma ili terkilan x sempat nak tgk abah dikebumikan..InsyaAllah Hari Raya ni ili nak balik Kelantan ziarah kubur abah..terima kasih sbb lahirkan ili..tanpa abah ili xdak kat dunia ni..

Semoga orang2 yang aku sayang bersemadi dengan aman..dan sentiasa dicucuri rahmatMu Ya Allah...
Semoga mereka ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman..amin...
Semoga ili dapat jumpa Tok, Pak Caq n Abah cepat2...

Dugaan Allah Yang Maha Kuasa~

pagi2 tadi pukul 7.40 my aunty kol..
she said dat my dad kena strok..
pastu my aunty ckp dia dah trok..
Ya Allah..xtau nak ckp cmna..
aku mcm jd terbodo..lost ja..nak buat apa dulu ni? nak kemas beg? nak p beli tiket? or wut?
den, dlm kui 1 p kuaq beli tiket..
ajak sharmi teman sbb cm xdak semangat nak p sorang2...
sok bas kui 8.30 pagi ke machang..
dah la x penah p kelantan..last skali maybe waktu 2 dlm umur 1 thn..
means dah 22 or 21 thn lepas..
aku doakan abah sembuh walaupun peluang untuk sembuh adalah sgt tipis..
aku hanya mampu mendoakan beliau selebihnya terserah kepada Yang Maha Kuasa..
aku berserah kepadaMu Ya Allah..
hanya Engkau tempat aku meluah rasa..
Kau bantulah aku Ya Allah..

Abah aku ada sakit jantung n darah tinggi n ada la penyakit2 lain rsnya..
maybe dia rsau wife dia(mak tiri aku) sakit..
sbb 2 kot dia kena strok..
maybe diorang rsau psl anak nak kawen sok lusa ni..14/3 ni..
kesian abah..
abah,hang on there..2morrow i'll be by ur side..

semuanya dah lama berlalu tapi aku x pernah lupa~

tadi bercerita dgn dyl..
kisah2 lalu...
aku xtau napa..everytime cita psl family..mesti nangis..
maybe trauma kot...
i dunno..i hope i can forget everything i've gone through...
i'll try 2 accept ur advices dyl...
it's difficult 4 me 2 forgive n forget..
one day..i'll promise i will go n i won't come back again..
i'll 4get everything behind me..all the bad memories...
n i'll start my new life..

Ya Allah..only You understands my heart..plz forgive me 4 being like this..
i can't help it..they' re the ones who make me like this..

tolonglah jgn malukan diri..

macam2 ragam penulis blog yg aku tgk..
ada la gak melawat blog kwn2 n blog2 bukan kwn..
ni suma psl nak siapkan assignment pendapat publik kena cr blog politik utk dikaji..
so macam2 la jenis blog yg aku jumpa...
hehehe..lawak2..ada sorg budak ni..agak annoying..i know him..but better xyah la ckp sapa dia
dia ni jenis yg suka ckp x penah jatuh,n den sllnya apa yg dia ckp 2 tah hapa2 n org pn x paham..
bila dia bukak mulut ja..rs nak sumbat kain bg dia diam...sbb mmg nonsense setiap butir kata yg kuar dr mulut dia 2..;

sllnya bila dia ckp ja.. aku n kwn2 sll wat eye kontek..so faham arr masing2..meluat..
n den dia suka menarik perhatian lecturer..maybe dia nak tunjuk yg dia serba tahu..
apa2 ja la mr professor..
dah msk U ni..mcm2 ragam org aku jumpa..
xpalah..maybe cara dia cm 2..
aku pn ada gak kekurangannya..
asalkan org 2 bahagia dgn cara dia dah la..
cuma..jgnla selalu meninggi diri,gila kuasa,suka nak tarik perhatian sgt pasni..
x perlulah suma 2..wat org menyampah jer..
sorrylah kalau agak membebel..hehe~

am i sick??

skang ni dah xdak idea nak menulis..

tambah lak dgn asik bz ja..

nak kata bz dgn assignment xdak la sgt..

xtaula bz watpa..

haha..

bz sbb asik tgk movie korea n japan ja kot..

sambil layan SS501 (boyband korea)

lani plak cm hilang fokus ja kat stdy..y eh? y?

rs cm perlukan penasihat peribadi utk menasihati diriku ini..

sesiapa yg sudi nasihat aku supaya merajinkan diri..

silalah tampil ke hadapan kalau berani!!

huhu~

yeayy!!

pejam celik2..dh nak abih dh cuti..
yaho0o0o!!!
so happy..dh nak balik UKM..
leh jumpa dayah,sarah,aja,wany,bam,liyen n dilla..
can't wait 2 c them..
huhu..

father's day..

happy father's day 2 all fathers in the world..
wlupn arini father's day..
but it doesn't meant anything 2 me..
x pernah rs di sayangi oleh seorang ayah..
n never do i guess..
wut ever it is..
i still wanna enjoy my life with my beloved people dat do love me..
mama n bibik..n my lovely frens..
thanx so much!

nothing 2 say..jez update

hermm..sesungguhnya aku sgt kebosanan di saat cuti sebegini..
dah xtau nak watpa..
badan pn makin mengembang..
lagi 1 dok rsau dok tunggu result ni..
haih~
11 jun 2009 bakal mencipta sejarah lagi sekali..
sama ada sejarah yg baik or vice versa..
jez wait n c..

blur*

hermmm..malam ni..rs kosong..
rs nak ckp dgn org..
tp xdak sapa nak ckp dgn aku..
nak ym..
tp malas lak..
n confuse..xtau nak wat apa..
skang ni fokus aku dh lari..
stadi pon x msk..
setiap hari hanya meneruskan hidup dengan boring dan tanpa tujuan..
my life's so miserable n my head full of mess!!

kisah di Mid Valleyh!

dh lm x update..
mls la..
wlupun ari2 on9...

arini x bnyk cita..
cuma pas balik kelas PR kui 11 cm 2..
tros naik bas g komuter pas 2 kami menuju ke mid valley
utk mengumpul derma 4 MERCY Malaysia..
last2 zahid a.k.a ketua program aku..
bgtau..management mid x bg nak kutip derma..
last2 aku,dayah n aja..
p mkn ayamas n den balik..
btoi2 buang ms aku..
dh la aku 5,6 ari dh migrain..
bertambah2 migrain aku..
balik2 tros aku tdoq..