Thursday, February 26, 2009

*I am an outsider*

I am an outsider..

Who always struggled to win others hearts..

I am an outsider..

Who try to pretend I am happy when they are around..

I am an outsider..

Who always being a hatred for them..

I am an outsider

Who always being rejected in most of the occasion

I am an outsider

that always being isolated..

I am an outsider

Who always try to put myself in this family circle

I am an outsider

Who always try to seek for the real love from them

I am an outsider

Who always try to pretend that she happy throughout this life she has gone through..

I am an outsider

will always struggle 2 win everyone's heart

I am an outsider

that everyone assume like a burden for them

I am an outsider

That will always remain to be an outsider forever..

hidupku sekarang..

hidupku sekarang di penuhi dengan kegembiraan..
hidupku sekarang masih dibayangi kenangan silam..
hidupku sekarang dihantui masa depan..
hidupku sekarang dikelilingi rakan,sahabat, teman, dan kenalan..
hidupku sekarang lebih bermakna dengan adanya pahit dan manis..
walupun aku semakin sibuk dengan segala2nya..
tapi aku amat bersyukur kepadaMu ya Allah..
kerana menetukan jalan hidupku yg sebegini..
aku xkan menyalahkan takdirmu lagi..
kerana aku tahu..
1 hari nnt kesabaranku akan di bayar olehMu
terima kasih Tuhanku..

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Life being so bz lately..

i'm so damn exhausted now..
with my hectic life..
loads of things need to settle..
i want another 24 hours 4 a day..
huarrgghh!!
it's been a long time since i'm updating my blog..
ok..i'll tell all of u what have i gone through while i was busy n busybody with my life..hehhee
actually i was involved with KAPREZA(karnival premier za'ba 2009) n also i was busy doing my assignments..loads of them!still in progress with another bulk of them..huh!tired3..
n now bz with all dinners n wut so ever..dats y i've 2 focus in my "in a rush" life..
fullstop!

Friday, February 13, 2009

mampukah aku??

aku risau..
banyak sgt keja..
n den duit pn nak pakai banyak..
risaunyaaaaaaa..
mampukah aku nak siapkan keja2 ni on time..
mampukah aku nak pikul tanggungjawab yg diberikan..
mampukah aku bekerjasama dgn "budak 2"
yang terkenal dgn sikap bossy dia 2 n angin x tentu hala..
arrgghhh!!
kenapa sem ni payah sgt n banyak sgt tensennya..
Ya Allah,bagilah aku semangat dan kekuatan utk aku~
Aminnn...

Thursday, February 12, 2009

boycott~

arini aku tensen lagi..
kali ni psl senior2 lak..
psl dinner..
dhla mahal..
theme nya masquerade..
hoh!
mmg suma xmau p arr..
sbbnya bdk2 first intake kena potong pt smpi tnggl 200 ja..
sian kat depa..
n den theme 2 cm x sesuai utk yg bertudung..
td senior2 msk kelas kami utk soh kami p..
suma nak emo2
n den lecturer pn cam nak marah2 snn kitorang xnak bg kerjasama
ada la plak sapa tah p tulis "boycott" kat poster2 yg senior2 2 wat..
xtaula dr 1st year or 2nd year..
sbb 2nd year pn ada gak yg xmau p..
tahla..maybe aku p n maybe x..

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

*emo*

arrgghhh!!
tensen2!!
banyak keja..
tp kemalsan mengatasi segalanya..
kenapa aku begini??
sem ni cm berat tulang ja..
huh!
assignments yg perlu dilangsaikan ialah:-
*Advokasi dan Aktivisme(2 assignment)
*Teori Komunikasi(2 assignement)
*Penulisan dalam Organisasi
*Ketrampilan Berkomunikasi & Berbahasa

hadoiii..
cmna ni?
laptop lak ala2 nak rosak ja..
virus gemok2 dlm laptop ni..
hermm..
mcm2 yg berlaku!
serabut2!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

bersenam menyihatkan badan~

arini pas subuh..
g jogging dgn fateha my rumet..
kitorang p kui 7..
n balik kui 9..
aku nak kurus!!
mesti2!!

penat gila..
kami p joging kat tasik kejut..
actually bnyk jalan..joggimg x sgt..
hehehehe..
round tasik 3 round n den wat turun naik tangga 200x..
pheeww~
penat2..
balik2 beli mkn..
rilex2 jap pas mkn..
pasni nak tdoq arr..
hehehe..
exhausted!

kena tagged oleh lil gajah..

tiba2 td bukak blog nad kena tagged la plak..

pasni nak tagged org lain plak..huhuhu..tapi x ckp 8 org..4 je la..hehehe..


Rulez!!!
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz. (Those that are tagged cannot refuse.)
C) Continue this game by tagging 8 other people

a)adam

b)amer

c)sue

d)cik t



What have you been doing recently?
- wat assignment keterampilan berbahasa..lenguh montotku asik menaip dr kul 4 td..


Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
- of course..bila time gaduh dgn ex-bf(wk2 dolu2 la) n wk2 nak charge hp(kadang2)

bila time rs nak off

What happened at 10am today?
- still sleeping..hoho~

When did you last cry?
- just now..sebab..rahsia..

Believe in fate/destiny?
- yes..

What do you want in your life now?
- I want good result with high cgpa..

-want my life full of happiness..

-nak bf..hahahaha..


Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
- yala..kena la pakai payung bila hujan..tp kalau x bawak n hujan 2 renyai2 je…redahla daku di dalam hujan..romantik gitu..

What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
- surfing da net and tidoq(of cos!!)

What bottoms are you wearing now?
- short

Whats the nicest things in your inbox?
- from my ex-bf..*shy2 cat*

Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
- suka!!

Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
- I dun think so..thinking..yes,I’m sure!nope!

What was the last movie you caught?
- gila-gila pengantin remaja.. aja n dayah insist me 2 watch..it was fun n hilarious..haha..

What are you proud of?
- being a Muslim, a university student..so my stepsiblings won’t look me down anymore..

All of u think I’m studpid rite?yala..i’m not like ur beloved sister..i noe I’m dumb..huh!

Hate y’all!!


What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
- “ayg jgn kata abg dh benci ayg,sbnrnya ayg yg benci abg,abg yakin ayg dh dpt lupakan abg, ayg dh bunuh abg dlm hati ayg”huhuhu..1/7/2007 mesej ni di hantar..


What was the last song you sang out loud?
- ayat-ayat cinta(rossa)


Do you have any nicknames?
- lilo and tomato

What does the newest text say?
- from wany: “ok”

What time did you go to bed last night?
- can’t remember short term memory..huhu..i think aroung 2 to 3 am

Are you currently happy?
- not really..lonely..

Who gives you the best advise?
- dayah suka bg nasihat yg membina..

Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
- no-no

Who did you talk on the phone last night?
- my ex-bf

Is something bugging you know
- assignment..assignment..assignment..hidupku lemas di bawah timbunan assignment..

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- my ex-bf




Saturday, February 7, 2009

nothing 2 say..but i jez wanna write sumthin ere..

i dunno y..
i feel so down lately..
i was so vague about my feelings rite now..
i am to0o0o lazy 2 do anything..
i feel like i want to lay on my bed and reading novels or online until i feel bored..
i have to remember the reason y i'm here..
yes..i don't forget y..
but..my spirit jez dun come yet for me 2 concentrate on my studies...
it seems like it's jez my body here..but actually my soul not being with me..
it's scattered everywhere...every place dat's not here in UKM..
i wanna run away far from this boring life..
but i can't do dat..
i jez can't..
maybe 1 day..i will..

kisah di Mid Valleyh!

dh lm x update..
mls la..
wlupun ari2 on9...

arini x bnyk cita..
cuma pas balik kelas PR kui 11 cm 2..
tros naik bas g komuter pas 2 kami menuju ke mid valley
utk mengumpul derma 4 MERCY Malaysia..
last2 zahid a.k.a ketua program aku..
bgtau..management mid x bg nak kutip derma..
last2 aku,dayah n aja..
p mkn ayamas n den balik..
btoi2 buang ms aku..
dh la aku 5,6 ari dh migrain..
bertambah2 migrain aku..
balik2 tros aku tdoq..

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

kawan2ku menjadi pemblogger..

rupa2nya..
ramai kwn2 aku dok jd blogger sejati ni ek..
yg aku tau ada blog..
si adam bawang 2..
cik t..
seterina..
amer..
bella..
si shafiqah 2 ntahla..dikhuatiri..
cm ada..
tp bila aku tekan link..
xleh plak..
tp rsnya ada..