saya minta maaf..maafkan saya..

semalam lelaki itu telah menghubungiku semula.. setelah seminggu lebih menghilangkan diri.. mungkin dia dah dapat merawat hatinya yg luka.. bukanla niat nak menyakitkan hati dia.. tapi dia perlu faham..hati manusia xleh dipaksa.. takkan kita nak sacrifice ms depan kita hanya krn dia kata dia mampu untuk menanggung aku.. MANA LEH NAK PAKSA2 ORG KAWEN DGN DIA!!! xbley2..no3x... saya mintak maaf..saya xleh janji nak kawen dgn awak... masih banyak yang perlu saya wat dalam hdp saya.. Kawen adalah satu perkara yg besar yg xleh di buat main2.. i'm so sorry..saya terpaksa berkasar dgn awak ari 2.. sbb saya dah xtau nak cakap camna nak bg awak faham.. apa2 pn..terima kasih dgn nasihat2 yg awak bg kat saya smlm i really appreciate it.. saya harap awak jugak berjaya dlm hdp awak i'm just a chapter in ur life.. you just need to continue with the new chapter.. sometimes first love dun end up with marriage..

semuanya dah lama berlalu tapi aku x pernah lupa~

tadi bercerita dgn dyl..
kisah2 lalu...
aku xtau napa..everytime cita psl family..mesti nangis..
maybe trauma kot...
i dunno..i hope i can forget everything i've gone through...
i'll try 2 accept ur advices dyl...
it's difficult 4 me 2 forgive n forget..
one day..i'll promise i will go n i won't come back again..
i'll 4get everything behind me..all the bad memories...
n i'll start my new life..

Ya Allah..only You understands my heart..plz forgive me 4 being like this..
i can't help it..they' re the ones who make me like this..

problems always chase u around..

dah lama gila x update blog..rs malas sgt..
arini tb2 rs nak menaip plak..nak luahkan prasaan kat blog ni..
semakin hari rs hdp ni makin tension..
rasa xdak life skang..24/7 dgn assignment+kuliah+program+bla3..
so..i felt like i wanna go somewhere dat i can swept away my problems n forget everything..
i'm getting lazy 2 do my assignments..i'm going 2 class jez bcoz i dun want to be barred from the exam..msk kelas kuar klas cm 2 ja..pastu dah x ingt papa..
wut da hell i'm doing rite now? i realized wut i'm doing rite now is wrong..but i keep on wasting my time..i hope i can focus on my studies after dis..no more play..i hope so..
i think i'll stop here..

iLi