sigh of my hindrance in love

hermm..napa la bila dh lm2 bercinta jd macam xdak prasaan jaa..
rs cam tawar hati ja..
nak bercinta pn cm mls..
asik gaduh jaa..
skang ni komunikasi pn kurang..
macam dlm subject IGS-Individual & Groups Skills yg aku bljr dulu..
ada 1 Axiom which is "We Cannot Not Communicate"
kita kena berkomunikasi utk mengeratkan silaturrahim antara kita,,..
hehe..haih!apa yg aku merapu ni..hoho..
tp 2 la..dh jarang berkomunikasi skang ni..
x mcm2 mula2 kapel dulu..
24 jam nak contact sampai rimas!
but!tiba2 td dia kol..ingt jugak kat gf dia ni..
dia x kol n msg bukan psl apa..
skang ni zaman kegawatan ekonomi dia..sian dia..
so xleh la nak msg n kol cam slalu..

dh 16x clash n kapel balik with da same person..
i dunno what is the end of this relationship..
bcoz i know i can't and restricted to marry him..
halangan from my mums n my aunt..
if the relationship do not have the blessings from ur parents there is no use u want to continue it..
but..i dunno y..what makes me so hard 2 4get him..
GOD,plzz help me..
i really need ur help n patience of all ur lessons u given 2 me..
what are the reasons of all this..
I need guidance from U dear GOD..
plzzz..plz show me the right choice 4 my best..
i'll accept ur qada' & qadar if i wasn't meant to be with him..
but do show me ur sign GOD..
*sigh*

^iLi^